Struggling

I am a woman.. I hate PMS and all the struggles that go with it. I am struggling these past few weeks. I have never wanted my monthly gift so bad just so I could get the water weight and inhumane food cravings GONE!!!! They are killing me.. I am trying but it is so hard. I have not been good with resisting. I don't know about others but after struggling with weight my whole life I feel like a failure when I lose some weight and then it decided to work its way back some how. I need to get a new mindset. I have decided I need a new chant for these difficult times. It is only a setback. Everyone has set backs. this is my setback and now its time to get back on that horse and ride down weight loss lane.. preferably faster than slower..lol.. Here is to everyone having a good week. :)

Why

Why is it it seems some things are so easy for some people and not so easy for others.. I am working to find the medium where I do not feel outrageously jealous at the skinny girl in the aisle at the store buying a candy bar or eating mcdonalds who do not have to worry about what they put into their mouth every second of the day.. I am sorry if this offends some.. But for those people that have a ten pounds to lose to be at their ideal weight... Uh I say I hate you!!! sorry but I do. For those of us that can only make ten pound goals at a time and have a long road of ten pound goals ahead of us your little goal is not so cute to us.. I know this is mean and I know that its hateful.. But its honest. Us big girls got a long road ahead of us I know that I cannot compare myself to other people but its very difficult even at this age to not want one thing in my life to be easy and that is my weight.. I find myself feeling like this on bad days.. today was a bad day.. I am happy with my effort, but sometimes it is all just a little overwhelming and all I want to do is eat a HUGE chocolate bar with a side of chips and dip.. But I didn't and that is a good thing. I always remind myself that this weight just did not appear over night and its not going to go away overnight.. So I trudge on. till later. :)

This is Me

Hi,
This is my blog I have started to aid in my weight loss.. I hope that by having this blog I can help ease some of my stress by writing. I have struggled with my weight my whole life. I have dieted and lost, dieted and lost and now I am the heaviest I have ever been.. I am currently down 26 pounds and on a mission to get this weight off.. I am a body by vi distributor.. but my goal for this mission is to be a healthy weight.. but the big goal is to feel so much better about ME.. I have low self esteem and don't think very highly of myself lots of times. I have huge amounts of stress therefore I am a stress eater.. I have three children one of which happens to have autism. I am a stay at home mom therefore our financial situation is not the greatest.. we struggle. I struggle with anxiety lots of times. But getting just 26 pounds off has made me feel a little better  about me. I am lucky to have such beautiful children who love me and a wonderful caring husband who loves me.. they all love me unconditionally.. As well as my parents.  So this is my story in a nutshell welcome to my blog.. :)