Why

Why is it it seems some things are so easy for some people and not so easy for others.. I am working to find the medium where I do not feel outrageously jealous at the skinny girl in the aisle at the store buying a candy bar or eating mcdonalds who do not have to worry about what they put into their mouth every second of the day.. I am sorry if this offends some.. But for those people that have a ten pounds to lose to be at their ideal weight... Uh I say I hate you!!! sorry but I do. For those of us that can only make ten pound goals at a time and have a long road of ten pound goals ahead of us your little goal is not so cute to us.. I know this is mean and I know that its hateful.. But its honest. Us big girls got a long road ahead of us I know that I cannot compare myself to other people but its very difficult even at this age to not want one thing in my life to be easy and that is my weight.. I find myself feeling like this on bad days.. today was a bad day.. I am happy with my effort, but sometimes it is all just a little overwhelming and all I want to do is eat a HUGE chocolate bar with a side of chips and dip.. But I didn't and that is a good thing. I always remind myself that this weight just did not appear over night and its not going to go away overnight.. So I trudge on. till later. :)